Maybe

I am in Texas!! It has been wonderful to see my family. I love coming home because I feel like my family really misses me and they give me all this love and attention when I'm here. My siblings seem a lot nicer than the last time I was here. Morgan and Isaac are kind to eachother. Jake does what he's asked to do. There seems to be a very good spirit here and I like it. Last night my dad and I made grilled chicken, mashed potatoes, green beans, and rolls for dinner. My mom worked late, but all the kids and my dad and I sat down for dinner together. It was so wonderful :) I like my family. I like this home. Maybe it's because it's only been a day- but my family seems so much more mature and loving. I'm digging it.

And now I have a husband.

I have finished three years of college. I am turning 21 this summer. I'm thinking about the past few years and remembering the feelings and emotions of my heart. Two years ago, at this time, I was a bright-eyed freshman. I had one year at BYU under my belt, and not a clue what I wanted to do in the future. I wasn't in a relationship, but I had a lingering attraction for my high school boytoy. I wasn't sure what I wanted, and had no idea I would meet the man I'd marry in just a few weeks time. I had plans to return home to Texas and find a job. I didn't know I would work with all my closest friends and that we would spend most of our summer nights with a gang of cute boys from. . . who would've guessed?. . .Utah. I didn't know he'd take my hand and my heart would race, or that he'd kiss me and my inhibitions would disappear. I didn't know I would have to make big decisions, probably the hardest of my life. I didn't know I would have to break someone's heart to make anothers' smile. And to think. . . now I have a husband.

A husband: one who is nice to me even when I'm cranky. . .who doesn't get jealous of high school boy friends who want to catch up. . .who helps me calm down when I'm overwhelmed. A husband: one whose smile still makes me melt and who I still want to see at the end (and beginning, and middle!) of every day. I love you, hubby. I was just thinking about two years ago..

(Ps. Readers, I'm sorry this was a little bit of a sappy married post. I was just blogging about what's on my mind...)

Waiting Patiently

I am on campus right now. I am not enrolled in any classes and it's the break between winter and summer classes. . .the whole place is dead. After work this morning, I decided I would try to print off all the pictures of our married life. We haven't had any developed since we tied the knot. Sad day! After about half an hour of trying to upload the honeymoon pictures, the computer underwent some sort of error and deleted my progress. I was really annoyed. Instead of trying to upload them all to the BYU website, I decided I would just send them to Wal-mart because that's what I always do. And it's going much faster now! I did get off work 2 hours ago. . .and I'm still finishing up the uploading. Just thought I would share a few treasures I found while I'm waiting. . .waiting, waiting patiently!

Me getting up on a wakeboard for the first time ever!
Oh, just a little package peanut fight we had after receiving a few wedding gifts in the mail.
The scoreboard after we beat Utah in overtime! Woo woo.

HAHAHA. I had never seen this picture before!

Sweet sisters over Christmas break.

Get it, girl!

So, JD's little sister, Tiffanie, tried out for cheer last year and she wasn't supposed to make it. They accidentally put her name on the list. After she found out "she made it," the school district contacted the Knowldens to tell them the situation. The coach and the school decided to let her be on the team on kinda like a test trial because of their mistake. It was all a big fiasco, but Tiffanie took it for what it was worth and looked at it as an opportunity. She's been taking tumbling classes for the past year and working her butt off to improve. The budget is kindof tight for the Knowldens, and her parents told her they didn't think she would be able to do it again this year because of how expensive it's been for them. A few weeks ago Tiffanie got a job and is going to work all summer to pay her own way for a chance to do it again. Today, she tried out. And today she made the varsity cheerleading squad. She landed her roundfoff four to a tuck (four backhandsprings and a back flip), her standing tuck, and a 4 jump tuck sequence (right hurkey, toe touch, left hurkey, toe touch, tuck). I would have killed to be able to tumble fearlessly the way she does. I haven't seen her cheer or her dance yet, but she seemed pleased with how she performed. The whole story is really inspiring to me because she hasn't given up. She has improved so much in the last year and I am really proud of her hard work. Get it, girl!

Grown-ups.

On Wednesday, Holli and I went to Roxanne's bridal shower, coordinated by Ashley. Roxanne seemed giddy and excited, ready to move forward with her life. She's always pretty happy, but she seemed particularly glowing. It was fun to be there with her. She got some really cute lingerie! Haha, it was great to watch her open it all and giggle over every one!

It's always good to see the girls from home (I almost just capitalized home.. to me, it seems that it almost should be a proper noun). It's wierd to me that we're grown-ups.

I cried.

Last Tuesday, I went to play flag football with some people in my major. We had a ton of fun. Yesterday, they all got together for a barbecue to meet each other's significant others and to have a last final hurrah before graduating. JD and I had a stupid work training all day, and I wasn't able to go. As we were getting ready to leave from flag football, everyone was saying "See you Saturday!" It suddenly hit me I wouldn't be there on Saturday and that it would probably be the last time I saw these girls. . .ever. I cried. I couldn't keep back the tears.

We hugged and shared our love for each other and for the friendships we've formed over the past few years. I am so grateful for the chance I've had to meet them and to work with them and to play with them. It is overwhelming to me that they are all leaving, but I am so excited for their internships and for the places they are going. Life is supposed to move forward and change, but sometimes it's a little hard for me to handle. I cried, definitely.

Tennis Mood.

We've been in tennis moods lately. The weather has been so lovely. Yesterday we played doubles with Tyler and Kristy, a couple from our ward.

(Tyler is the one to JD's left. They played on the same team for a Platinum 3 on 3 basketball tournament a few months ago. JD really likes him, which is awesome because they are also coming out to DC to sell in the same office. Small world!)

Last weekend we played doubles with Holli and Abe. It was really fun. Both couples we played said they weren't very good at tennis; both couples kicked our booties. I am still not great at tennis, but I'm improving. Mostly, I just really like playing and know that I'll get better the more I practice. :)